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This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.
Here is Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 29
I have not done what I set out to do in September. I have not followed the plan, I have not kept detailed records, and I have not put any effort into what I needed to do this week at all.
The Monster is winning this week. It is crushing the soul of my inner beauty. What am I going to do about it?
I have to refocus. I have to make the efforts I need to make to have results. I am not perfect, and although I was going to try my best, I fell short. Like not even falling off the wagon, because I never climbed on it in the first place.
What am I NOT going to do about it? Make excuses.
I am better than that. I am better than the monster inside that convinced me it was a great idea to eat chips and Fudgsicles this week. I am better than the monster that is telling me it is OK to eat whatever I want to because I am really hungry and don’t have time to wait for a healthier option to be ready to eat. I am worth the effort of drowning out the monster with my inner beauty. I need to let it shine, and help me find the way to becoming a healthier version of myself.
I need to have a plan, not just the THM plan, although that is a part of what I need to do, it needs to be a complete plan that encompasses everything I am working on and makes me want to work at this. On me. It is bigger than me just writing about it. I need to DO it. So this weekend, I am going to set aside a few hours to get this set up.
Part of the reason is that I am very skilled at making excuses. I need to stop it. Right now. I am on such a roll with my writing that I do not want to stop. I want to keep moving forward in all aspects of my life and live it to the fullest. I will also avoid things and just do what I want to do instead of what I need to do if it is easier. This is not a good way to do what I want to do, which is to lead by example. I am not feeling the leader vibe this week. I need to change things and make this happen.
Now. OK, on the weekend, as I am a tad bit busy with the writing and the entrepreneurial dreams and projects I am working on to change my whole life for the better. The problem with letting the monster win is that I am leaving out a very important aspect of this dream, and that is me. I need to rank myself higher on the list of things to be taken care of, so the inner beauty has the chance to glow and outshine the monster forever.
I am making a commitment here to have this ready to go for Monday. I am going to hold myself accountable for taking the steps to make things happen. Only I can make the necessary plans and changes to have this work. It is time to take action and stop listening to the monster that keeps me from being the healthiest version of myself. It is time to open the cage that traps my inner beauty so far inside me that I cannot find it anymore. I need to let it out and nurture it until it is as bright as the sun. I need to keep telling myself that I am worth it until I believe it. Louder than the monster. Brighter than the stars in the sky. Over and over again, until I really get it. And then you will see that I am doing this in front of all who witness it, and I will be accomplishing the dream of leading by example, by working hard to achieve my personal and professional goals. Other things are starting to fall into place. This is just the next thing I am on the verge of succeeding at. Time to shine.
If you are following this series, and like what you read, thank you. If you have your own story to share, please contact me. I have accepted other people’s stories in this category and would love to have more stories than my own to share here. I don’t want to bore everyone with my stories EVERY week, so if this is something YOU want to do, reach out to me. There is a contact page for that very reason. I am also willing to work with people to write a story based on an informal interview or having some discussions about their issues, to help other people deal with their own issues, and helping people understand what it is really like to have issues on EITHER END of the scale. I would be happy to share your experiences, issues, successes, and tips here in the future. Stop thinking about it. Stop making excuses. Let’s work together to change ourselves and the lives we live. Our inner beauties deserve to be free and thriving. We are worth every bit of the effort. Let’s drop-kick those monsters to the curb. Together. If I can do this, so can you.